Wither.Water.Waiter.

It's the middle of the week. 

and i find myself. happy. 

not that this is new, or an odd event for me...

I've got some fabulous friends, a sweet crazy family and a little girl that makes me smile everyday. 

blessed.

nothing less than blessed (: 

There has even been a reunion of sorts. 

a friendship that i cherish. 

Lets just sum this night up as wondrous. 

"dont be hasty, no dont treat me like a baby, let me take you where you'll let me, because leaving just upsets me" -Paolo Nutini (Jenny Dont be Hasty) 

The next few days to come, will be busy so i wont have a chance to update ( or maybe i will)
 i guess we will see....

The sun is out, so soak it up my friends! 

Goodnight my sweets (: 

Crystal Kearney (: 

" When im not sure of my priorities, when i've lost sight of where im meant to be, like holy water washing over me...you make it real for me"

Feelings can lie.

"dont follow your feelings, just follow His will...and wait"

God gave me a brain for a reason right? If I was made to follow every feeling, every whim or emotion that moved us...well I guess we just wouldn't need to think a whole lot.

Regardless of how my heart feels, I know what is right, I know what the bible calls for and I know that's the standard no matter what.

I'm recovering.

Healing.

Trusting.

And still, I harbor no resentment or bitterness.

Allowing myself to feel this instead of shutting my feelings away was a great choice. This is strength.

Thank you God (:

Have a great day my loves!!

Crystal Marie Kearney!

"but you're here, your real, I know I can trust you. Even when it hurts, even when it's hard, even when it all just falls apart." -Kari Jobe

The Awakening.

I saw today about you. 

who you are. 

how you've changed. 

or better, how you have reverted. 

and i couldn't feel anything but sorry...

sorry. 

that is all. 

I cannot say that I haven't make mistakes to call my own.

I cannot say that I know perfection. 

I cannot say that I am a friend of fearlessness every day of my life. 

but i know that i would never hurt you by sharing your mistakes with the world. 

in detail. 

and i would never shame you by telling the tales of your suffering. 

with gladness. 

Words are powerless unless you give them life. 

meaning. 

&

value. 

My heart stands solidified against the idea of you. 

i was broken at one point. 

but no longer. 

the truth is, i made the mistake of telling myself i could help you along your way. 

i cant. 

Out there somewhere....

is the man that God has made for me. 

The person who will love me like Christ called him to. 

The sweet gentleman who's face stirs up love. The man who i will wake up next to everyday and thank the Lord for. The person I shall call my husband. 

and i pray you find her. 

the woman who will envoke joy and selflessness from you. 

The woman that God created to be your complimentary half. 

and long before this....long before i accepted it....i knew this was the right thing to do. 

I knew it. 

but avoiding the issue wont change it. 

Hope fills my lungs and breath arises. 

Laughter fills my heart and strengthens my joy.

All is well. 

S/O to that dear one having trouble being away from those he loves. I think of you often and my heart is with you. Dear, dear friend (:

Anticipation. (:

<3 Goodnight Sweethearts. 

Crystal Marie Kearney 

" I've been on the wrong track, with the wrong map and im tryina to find my way home" 

-Johnny Lang